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I’m still afraid of Ted. Abusers are like that. They never go away. But only survivors can tell their stories.

ooking back now I realize how his frenzy and his fun masked the fear… like those crappy colored clouds of smog hanging over world capitals that we try to forget are actually pollution by pretending that they aren’t even there.

Ted’s doing kept me occupied. His always needing more and better had me running in circles…